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Post by shauna1 on Oct 29, 2012 22:35:21 GMT -5
 jayskywalker is onlinedon't know why i'm even online right now, but yeah anyone around? i need some one to talk to.
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Post by kaylee quinn mitchell on Oct 29, 2012 22:38:53 GMT -5
 kaylee~You shouldn't write nasty stories about people.
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Post by shauna1 on Oct 29, 2012 23:41:33 GMT -5
jayskywalker is online well i was unaware it was going to be plastered all over a fucking gossip blog.
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Post by kaylee quinn mitchell on Oct 29, 2012 23:50:03 GMT -5
kaylee~ Well, he doesn't like you so don't do it again.
You don't get to think about him like that.
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Post by shauna1 on Oct 30, 2012 0:06:27 GMT -5
jayskywalker is online did you ever think maybe i thought he did? maybe that just before this gossip blog shit happened he made he think we were going to be together but then just stomped on my heart like a fucking piece of glass? and you can't tell me who and what i can think about kaylee, that's not how our minds work.
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Post by kaylee quinn mitchell on Oct 30, 2012 0:30:23 GMT -5
kaylee~ you should have known better. Everyone knew he wanted me. Yes, I can when he's mine. Don't think about my boyfriend like that. I don't like it. I don't want you to do it.
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Post by shauna1 on Oct 30, 2012 0:37:09 GMT -5
jayskywalker is online well he certainly wasn't talking about you when we hung out, kissed and cuddled. you know, couple like nonsense. and trust me, after him doing that to me avery is the last person i want. and by the way, that was written when he was with eva, not you so just stop talking. and i wasn't planning on it either, it just happened kay. it just fucking happened.
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Post by kaylee quinn mitchell on Oct 30, 2012 0:48:34 GMT -5
kaylee~ Duh, he had just found I was dating Declan. Good, it better stay that way. He was only with Eva because we broke up. You writing porn just happened?
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Post by shauna1 on Oct 30, 2012 1:10:14 GMT -5
jayskywalker is online that fantasy actually happened in my mind, when i was... well you know. i didn't want to think of avery when i was doing that, it just happened. therefore, when it came time to write a free-write in my creative writing class it just turned out to be on paper. no one was ever supposed to see it, then next thing i fucking know i get paired up with avery and for the first time in the history of that class i had to share my writing with him. it was a horrifying experience for just him to be reading it, and now everyone and their fucking mothers know that i wrote that. i understand why you're so upset about me writing that, but at that time he wasn't your boyfriend. but he was my friend, a friend whom i had a big crush on but of course i didn't want him to know because i liked the way things were. and now i will NEVER get that friendship back. no matter what happens, i will never be avery's friend again and you know what? it sucks. it fucking sucks. because even after the whole leading me on thing happened, i really did stil cherished the friendship we had kaylee because a friendship is so much more valuable than a relationship. and now everyone knows about that stupid fucking story, i have to walk around now with people gawking and staring at me because they read it. they saw it. i found out about it being posted while in public, people started laughing and saying terrible things to me and i had no idea why. it's fucking terrifying. i'm not the most popular kid in school, a nerd and im gay. and this is just the fucking icing on the fucking cake. so the last thing i need is you telling me all of this bullshit.
i'm sorry. ugh it's just... a lot to handle kay. i shouldn't be taking it out on you, i'm just freaking out. is all.
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Post by kaylee quinn mitchell on Oct 30, 2012 1:16:21 GMT -5
kaylee~ Uh, I got bored reading that halfway through but I think I get what you're saying. I'm sorry I was rude about it. I just don't like people thinking about him like that and I didn't like reading that story. I don't like how you talked about him.
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Post by shauna1 on Oct 30, 2012 1:22:24 GMT -5
jayskywalker is online yeah i know, i just got a lot of shit i've been holding in the last month or so. didn't meant to let it all out on you. and i get it, but at the same time that was a personal story thing for my eyes only. i didn't even want him to read it. trust me, none of this is what i had planned when i wrote that.
i just thought it would be another story that sat in my notebook in my closet. not for it to be online for the world to see. and my moms friends kid saw it, told her. then she told my mom. who is a christian woman who thinks i need to pray away my "gayness" so.. this is just perfect.
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Post by kaylee quinn mitchell on Oct 30, 2012 1:28:04 GMT -5
kaylee~ Its all good. I don't mind. It didn't stay personal though, thats the thing. And I don't know how to work jealousy. I like to not deal with it. Its hard to not deal with it when your dirty thoughts about him are all over the internet. Uh, I'm sorry about your mom.
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Post by shauna1 on Oct 30, 2012 1:33:36 GMT -5
jayskywalker is online trust me kaylee i don't want to deal with his just as much as you. i didn't put this online, and i honestly don't think avery would either. and he's the only one who read it, so i don't even know how this happened.
but in the mist of all of this bullshit, i would like to change your view on me. i'm not some striving pervert who walks around thinking about sex constantly or even writing about it all the time. because in all honesty even when i did like avery, in the crush form, that was the only time i've thought of him sexually.
i'm just a lonely nerd with a big heart lol and nah it's okay ever since i came out she's been trying to pray it away i'm used to it.
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