STAND UP AGAIN

[matty simon KENNEDY]

JUNE FIFTEENTH, TWENTY THIRTEEN

Velocity. What a shit hole.

I really don't see the appeal in this place. My dad won't stop going on about how perfect it is. All I see is scarily bright green gas and tricks & hoes around every other corner. My last town wasn't much better, but this just seems all kinds of fake and unwelcoming.

On the bright side, I have a new boy toy to play with. He's really something.

I still want to go the fuck home though.

That's all I have to report in, ladies and lads. And by that I mean no one. I doubt anyone's ever going to find this blog. But I'm just going to pretend there's an audience. It makes me feel better about myself.

[matty simon KENNEDY]

JUNE SIXTEENTH, TWENTY THIRTEEN

So, let's rewind a little bit. Boy toy.

I didn't include how we met. He kinda, sorta saved my life. Some assmonkeys at the park were giving me shit, I assume for being gay as the word faggot was thrown about quite viciously, and what do you know, within moments I'm sinking down the pond.

I'm afraid of water. Instead of struggling, I completely surrendered my body unwillingly to the depths of the pond. Had he who shall not be named not been there... well, I wouldn't be typing this.

When he pulled me out of the water, I wasn't breathing. CPR. I only briefly remember waking up with his lips on mine - a desperate attempt to save me, but all the same... a very, very sweet thing. At first, I thought I was in heaven, if that tells you anything. I asked him why he didn't have a beard.

After some laughs and giggles about how he didn't nearly fit the fashion criteria to be Christ, he walked me home and we just talked. It was nice. I made my first friend, and he just so happens to live right next to me.

So, we hung out again today. When I said boy toy yesterday, I didn't actually mean it. I was kidding.

I'm not really kidding anymore. He just left, but we just hooked up. It was awesome.

I have a feeling I'm going to be mentioning him a lot in this... maybe I should give him a new name. Let's go with Stan. That's a lovely name.

I don't know what the fuck is going on between us but I really like it.

Ta ta for now~

[matty simon KENNEDY]