love you out loud, cameron

[JACOB RYAN TUCKER]

Jacob's whole life had turned around in a matter of months. He still wasn't quite sure what to think of it all. He could see. There was so much color surrounding him that his brain almost couldn't handle it. He hadn't seen much of Declan and Alexa... She was gone. He had to live with his parents again. Kieran was dead... It was the only reason Jacob could see. Kieran, the boy who had tormented him for Jacob's entire life, was dead. He was gone forever. Jacob had cried over the loss of his brother because he didn't feel like Kieran deserved to die. It had turned out to be a suicide. Declan had been there. Jacob wasn't sure what the whole story was but he didn't care to know either. He wasn't sure how to feel about the whole Kieran situation still, even though Kieran had been gone for a couple months now. Jacob now had sight because of his brother and he was very thankful for that. He could see. His guide dog was gone though. They'd taken him away when they'd found out that Jacob could see. They'd given him to another little boy in Tampa and Jacob was glad that his guide dog could go on to help someone else but he couldn't help but miss him. Now Jacob had a pure white German Shepherd named Bolt, named after the dog in the movie Bolt. Jacob was absolutely fascinated with that movie. It was a fantastic movie.

Jacob had so many opportunities now that he could see. He could drive if he wanted. He could go hike Mount Everest. Hell, he could try something as simple as skateboarding. He could walk down the street if he wanted by himself. He was slowly learning the world of electronics and he was still working on memorizing letters, numbers, and colors. Everything that everyone took for granted was a new challenge to him. Jacob didn't know if he'd ever catch up with the people that were his own age. Declan had been trying to help him but Declan was busy lately. It was okay because Jacob didn't depend on him much anymore. Jacob was just fine on his own now. Matthias was gone too. He'd moved away about the same time Alexa had. Jacob missed Alexa Ross a whole damn lot. Sometimes he had a hard time with that loss. It was unbelievable. She'd done it out of nowhere. He just couldn't believe that Alexa was leaving her girlfriend and most importantly, him behind. He'd loved Alexa's daughter but it was no matter, he'd loved Alexa. Not in as a 'I want to date you' sort of way but more of 'I'm your best friend for life' sort of way. Now Alexa was gone and Jacob didn't even know how to get a hold of her. It sucked.

Jacob laid under the tree where Declan had stopped him from cutting more than he already had. Jake would forever have scars from his shoulder to his wrists from the billions of times he'd sliced through his own skin from his depression but he was healing now. He was better. Jacob could deal with the pressures of life and he was moving on from his past. Even though it felt like he didn't know anybody here anymore, he was dealing with it. He was doing so much better, even his parents weren't quite sure what to do with his happiness. He was now at peace with his life and his parents were happy about it. Jacob was the only Tucker child left in the Tucker household. Matthias was gone, all the older brothers were gone (including Maximus), and Kieran was dead. It had devastated the Tucker parents when Kieran died but they were moving on. They were just glad to have Jacob back in the house. He hadn't come back willingly because there was so many painful memories here, but he hadn't had a choice. Alexa was leaving and Jacob had had no way of supporting himself. Surprisingly, he was fine. The memories weren't that bad. Well, they were, but they didn't bother him like he had thought they would.

Now... He just wanted to meet new friends. Friends were always a good thing, right?

word count ;; 717 !
tagged ;; cameron carter !
wearing ;; click !
muse ;; little things - one direction
notes ;; wooo for old starters

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